we live in a cynical world

when people really easy to curse, to judge, to stab, to manipulate, to be any evil personalities that they want to be, the universe is too crowded with those negative atmospheres.
to be frank, sometimes i'm the one who made this world to be that crowded. sometimes i cursed when i was driving :p ,esp for those public transportation drivers! (bus, angkot, bajaj, u name it!) trust me, if u never cursed to those drivers, maybe u'll be the next legendary Ghandi or mother Theresa. here's another case that i have, when there's a person who cuts the line (oh! i hate this kind of people!). once there was a middle age man with his suit and tie, i was standing on the line to wash my hands, suddenly he came and cut my line! i was furious! i stood really close to him, saw him angrily. i was watching him in details. then he realized i was mad. he said "sorry" then he left! don't u embarrassed sir? with the suit and the tie that u wore? dont u learn about ethics and manners?
well, tips of the day, don't judge a person by his suit and his tie, that's 100% true!
those are the examples of some low levels of what i'm talking about here, when we talk about stabbing, talking someone behind their back, manipulating, or else, those kind'a some serious levels for me.
in a friendship, i really appreciate sincerity.
well, as a person, i'm not a fan of small talks. if i wanna talk, i'm gonna talk. if i don't want to, i'm gonna be silent or just smile. i'm not really good at faking something. that's why sometimes people think i'm kind'a cold or something at first.
but if we talk in a bigger scale, such as politics, business, etc, open your eyes! welcome to the real world! people manipulate one to another, then people throw some cynical critics one to another, because they think they are more capable than the others. esp nowadays there's only small number of people that stand for their idealistic.

ohh..yes, we live in a circus people!

Dream destinations

If I’m thinking about something that can recharge my energy (which has been exploited by my daily activities), hmm…traveling is the answer.

When? With whom? And where?

When? My fav time for traveling is not at the peak season. Why? Because the price is much cheaper. From the hotel, plane ticket, etc. The other benefit is we don’t have to battle with million members of family who wanna book the hotels and tickets.

With whom? Friends, bf, family. But my fav companions are friends and bf, because me and my family don’t really have same interest. For example, when I traveled with my brothers, I really wanted to try some specialty food from its place, but my brothers preferred Mc.Donalds or burger king!

Every single day! yeap, I had Mc.D’s scrambled egg for my breakfast every morning! Yeap, when boys say they wanna eat, they mean EAT (u can find the food easily, eat easily, and get full easily, then their mission accomplished!). The only kind of food they could compromise was Italian. As long as I could bribe them with a big plate of pizza, they wouldn’t dare to complain! Another example is when I was soo busy take many tourism brochures, like museums, theme park, or some other interesting tourism spots, one of them just said..”yaelah..theme park mah dmana2 sama aja, kya dufan! Males ah” then my face was like, hah?????? Knp ga skalian aja blg kya taman mini atau MONAS??

Then u know what? I was ended up at a CD store. Poor me…

Where? Hmmm..this is the most interesting part to talk about! Well, I have many, many, many dream destinations for holiday. I just wanna tell you some of them and promise me don’t tell anyone, hihi. Besides Bali or Lombok, actually we have other thousands beautiful beaches. One of them is in Papua. I’ve read about this place, it’s Raja Ampat, it has 4 beautiful main islands. Many beautiful corals and the beach? It’s really gorgeous. How about Bangkabelitung? I’ve browsed that place, and wow! It’s like a private island! Well, if we talk about tourism spots in Indonesia, I remember when I bought a book named “the naked traveler” written by an Indonesian author. I love that book! It’s funny, real and sadly.. I’ve just known that many foreigners have bought our beautiful islands based on what I’ve read! I had an experience which made me quite furious! When I had dinner at Jimbaran, there were many local tourists than foreigners. Then the owner said to one of the waiters “kok, lg banyakan orang lokal ya dr pada bule’nya” (trust me, the tone was like disappointed or something!) rasanya g pgn jawab “trus knp?? Lo jg lokal kaleeee!!! Belagu! (sambil tolak pinggang, hehe, biar galak sedikit maksudnya) Sadly I didn’t say it, just saw him angrily. Urrgghh!

Enough with the bad stories, besides beautiful beaches in Indo, i really, really, really wanna go to Maldives! The place is like paradise. It’s my dream place for a honeymoon or something when I get married one day, hehe. It’s flawless! Other destinations are Greece, India, Tokyo, Venice, NY, and many more! Greece, ohh..the ancient buildings are wonderful! With many small cafes along the streets. India…oh! I am curious about this place since I saw “the Darjeeling Limited”! Tokyo, with its modernism. Venice, with………. I don’t have to describe this one, everybody wanna go there! NY? You tell me!

Actually holiday isn’t always about some places that really far, expensive or else. We can still create our own nice, near, cheap holiday. Like, Bdg used to be my fav destination when I was bored with JKT. Only takes 2hours, many yummy food, cheap shopping spots. Well, even a friend of mine said “yahh k bdg si bukan liburan! Jajan batagor doang namanya!” haha, funny but quite nyebelin juga. But still, bdg was my fav! But now I live in bdg, so..i’ve to find another nice, near, cheap holiday. Still cant find one.

Well, hopefully the global crisis won’t be long (yeah rite!). So we can go to our dream destinations soon! Because the last thing we we’ll talk about, check your pocket honey! Can we buy the ticket soon or we have to bite our finger and stare the holiday brochures sadly until next week, next month or next year? Well, keep dreaming about magnificent places we want to visit one day. Everyone has their own fortune cookie Darla!

espresso and latte

you and me, are espresso and latte.
when we went to the coffee place, u asked for the espresso and i asked for the latte. two different kinds, two different choices. I took the cuisine&travel magazine, u took the newspaper. I read about kinds of wine, temples in Cambodia, latest ice cream place that offered the best gelato (which i recommended to visit it later), while u read the business articles and the global issue. when u were sipping your espresso, and i was enjoying my latte..we started to share our differences. I was telling u how exotic the temples are, based on the magazine said. U were smiling when i said "the gelato is soo tempting! we should try it..". Then u started to discuss the global issue that u had just read, and my lips started to say several questions "why? how? when?". Suddenly those two differences became blur. There, started from two different kinds of coffee became a nice rythm called conversation. we shared, we listened to each other, we enjoyed it. Don’t expect u can find ur cloning in this world. Even twins are different! Don’t expect espresso can be latte, latte can be espresso from your partner. Because if u just wanna see a same thing, u don’t need a partner, what u need is a mirror. Something that gives u a reflection of your self, without any differences.

written in December, 2006.

Dancing on your feet

my tiny feet and my turquoise flat shoes
moved to the left and to the right
followed the melody
you hold my tiny fingers
sometimes you hugged me warmly
like a kitty..
like a puppy..
my white skirt just like a kite
21 as same as 1, 2, 3
only numbers.
for him, i’m still his little kitty
oh..daddy..please dont stop..
i love dancing on your feet